The psychology of this whole affair is interesting to me. In many ways, my efforts at repairing and rebuilding the motorcycle have been symbolic of my own healing, the healing of my body and also the time it takes to learn from this and get my head right. I think if I had crashed but not had injuries that kept me off the bike, it really would have caused me to rush back ahead of my mental health. But in this case I rebuilt the motorcycle while my body was healing up and it allowed my mind a chance to get all the way ready.
After riding again yesterday, it's clear my mind is ready. Not only that, but with COVID and being stuck at home along with being unable to do the normal things in my life due to injuries and other things this last year, I was rapidly reminded of just how much stress relief I get from motorcycling. This has been missing for six months.
I ordered a new battery on Thursday and was hopeful it would arrive sometime during the midafternoon Friday, so I could stick it in and go for a real ride with my dad. I was also hopeful that as a backup plan, the weak battery would have enough left to start the bike on its own after being freshly charged, so I could go ride as long as I didn't shut the bike off during the ride, and bring along my LiIon jump pack as a backup. Turns out neither of these plans worked out, and I needed to get the bike back up my steep driveway to park in the garage ahead of the rain that's coming today so with great effort I got it to jump start with the jump pack, discovering in the process that the jump pack is also basically worn out. Since it was running, I went ahead and rode it for 20 minutes or so before parking it. Glad I did.
During this ride I discovered that the brakes are really not right. At first I thought the pads just needed to bed in with the rotor, since both were used and from different bikes. But after testing yesterday with a number of controlled hard stops, I can pull the lever all the way to the bar and it won't lock the front tire or even get close. It's not safe to ride at more than about 35 mph in this condition. I think the cracked left fork leg must have dumped oil on the brake pads. Today during the rain I will take the front end apart a bit to do the last bit of work getting the fork brace to fit correctly with the original fender, and while the wheel is off I'll clean the rotor. I'll clean the old pads with brake cleaner and scuff them with 400 grit (EBC HH) while they are off, as well as clean the caliper, but I also ordered a new set of brake pads. I won't be riding today but I would like to ride tomorrow, at least a neighborhood ride, so the cleaned up brake pads ought to be an OK backup plan in the event the new pads don't come in.
I also discovered over the past week that my foot still is not right and this doesn't seem to be something that's going to heal any time soon. At least with my motorcycle, I am in control. I can discover what's wrong and actually take action to repair it. But with my foot, I just have to wait and allow it to heal. Some actions I can take, like trying to rest, letting the Dr. do what he can do, but the biggest hurdles are overcoming my own impatience and stubbornness. My foot is in fine shape for motorcycling right now, just not for day long hikes. But it is a constant reminder that I am not in control of everything, and sometimes I just have to be patient. With the motorcycle, I am god. I can break it, I can fix it, I can decide what's good enough and what needs work, and I set the schedule. But with my body, I am not God. He is in control of my healing and what's good enough, what still needs work, and He sets the schedule. My efforts to take control just slow it down.
So I'm blessed today with a rainy day to do some final repairs. And tomorrow may be a nice day and perhaps I can ride, or the next day, and the bike will be more complete and safer to ride and my foot may even be 1% better for the day or two of rest. And then I only have to work two more days this year and then I'll be off for what looks like a week and a half of glorious weather and great opportunities for more rest and riding.